my holidayyyyy:P

 YO WHASSUPPPP

 The super duper cute teacher(^ ^)

I'm sure she'll be an amazing mum teehee(it's a shame she left the sch though:/ )

 This was on 2ndjune. went for a run with Beryl in the morningg.

 Ate at foodcourt and we ate pizza. HAHAHAHA yep after all the running in the morning, i just decided on pizza #genius   :D

 this was on the 4th. cause i forgot to bring my key out so yep kind hearted Fecilia took me in

 AND YEP. since there was pasar malam, this is our lunch(ramly burger, fried oreo and corn puppies which are just fried hotdogs coated with some flour thing)

 These were taken before june but can't rmb when...yahh (when I'm bored I just do things liddat)

 TEEHEE ms ho came back from Australia just to see us cutiepies:P

Ms ho also came back to see our concert--Reverie

The concert that we spent months practicing for, and also as our last performance:') bittersweet.

 Even ms low came back to help out choir with makeup! (I miss herr!)

SELFIE GAME TOO STRONG

  

 really didn't know how picky ms wong was with the angle of photos until that day. HAHAHA she made shande take like 4times?? from the specific angle so that we wont look bad(LMAO) she's so cutee. (Her son is ultra cute too :D)

 Love this group of juniors.

 When I stand beside someone too good, I just become awkward. (confidence level goes downhill, self esteem drops to the core of the earth) hope it explains why my face went distorted. Nevertheless, grateful for this guy :)

 

 This kuku being too tall._.

Stayed up till 3am that day to watch Spain but Spain lost:'((((

Slept at 5 and woke up at 8. Zzz 

14th was a busy day going everywhere and rushing to concert.

 And here's some photos.

 All the pain in this new pair of heels and I am still short. -majorfacepalm-

 Reached home at 12 and was so tired I just showered and slept. Slept till 6 and I watch WC. MUAHAHAHA Italy rocks. (finally watch a match that the team i was supporting won woots) 

watched soccer on 16th until 1+ (i was too tired to stay awake throughout the match.)

17th,went out to study with raveen and huilong.

then 18th went to beryl's house. 

(raspberry m&ms from beryl) I stole it actually..yah. I stole kitkat and vitagen too..too very surprising yeahh?

20th, I was went to BBP and back home a couple of times cause of my bro and studied in the library there for hours. (interesting thing that happened: 2 guys came over to share the table. Of course I was cool about sharing the table. I mean who wouldn't rightt. I think they were there for like less than an hour. But when they were leaving this guy just gave me a slip of paper written with "JIAYOU STUDYING. and thanks for sharing the table." I mean like, how cute can this person be HAHAHAH I just find it really funny. Anyways that friday was really fun cause I met Liz(bro's gf) and had a real good time talking to her. yayyy. was a good good fridayy^^

 

saw this cat water bottle at bpp popular store...(I WANT IT!!)

 and yah. I borrowed this book..trying to relive my childhood a bit. (roald dahl book in chinese HAHAHAH)

21st, the saturday I went to a friends house and watched Rio and In time. Both movies are good(Y) and I got gongcha(caramel milktea) muahahaha

 

 and the friend made food. this wrap thing (it's nice okayyy) dammit. i'll never be able to cook. zzz and just so you know this friend is a guy._. yeah guys who can cook, i salute you.

AND on the 22nd. 

a fun filled day

 Just realise how amazing these sunglasses look. (shyt i really want themmm!!! AHHHHH)

 THIS DRESS WAS FROM THE KID ' SECTION AND I NEED TO GET IT. IT'S TOO CUTEEE

 Trying out boy clothes(kids'section) #trytoohard #ilooklikeapenguin #actcool #stilltrying

 Hipster max

 

 The shorts in the pic on the right cost $49.90.... do you feel me? yeah..the pain of being poor....

 Oh yah. we went to the farm to help clear goats' poop. The sun was cray so we needed the hat. yeahh:)

Pretty sky. Idk when the photo was taken but yeah.

JUNE

Omg six months just flew by like that. It's crazy how time flies by just nobody's business. Seriously. Like WHATTTTT? So much has happened and so much has changed. my first relationship happened and ended, my sweet sixteen, the happiest moments of my life(so far), first time watching soccer, first time watching a movie on a couple seat with a special someone, the first kiss, the first time a guy other than my bro and my dad piggybag me, just happiness I never thought I would experience. It was wonderful, nice, sweet, memorable. But things happen and happy times have to end and it's time to move on. It's time for me to learn how to be happy alone again, learn to be good, great alone and live life to the fullest alone. I know I am capable of doing that cause there was a time before him and there will be a time after him. Everything is impossible until you experience it. So I won't limit myself. In fact I'm quite happy about the freedom, the carefree feeling now. I mean I was happy been with him but being without him seem just as nice too. And I like it this way now, I like this contented feeling I have towards everything I see now and I love this positive attitude I have come to adopt to. Life is good and I'm thankful for those who stayed with me through the thick and thin. HEHs. May the next half of the year be just as good and God bless my O's (^ ^)

 It's been so longgggg. the exam period has been over for so long but yeah whatever. Selfie in the library when I got too tired studying LOLOLOLOL

 

We (Beryl and I) ate at pizza hut twice during my exam period ._. 

 

Lunch at the hongkong cafeeeee

Awkward me in the background._.

 Enlarged it so you can see clearly. The curry chicken is super nice. (A lot nicer than what beryl ordered at least:))))) )

 On April6^^

 KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE I AM A CAT

 Class grad photo(I really hope it will look good in the yearbook>.<)

(^ ^)

 Chocolate cake from KFC :999999

 Random photo. (honestly this photo has super good quality)

 Just mud. No, I'm jut kidding, it Oreo mcflurry(I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SPELL)

 I WANT STRAWBERRIESSSSS:(((

 After dental appointment the other day. (check out my face reflected in the mirrorrrrr;)) )

Shopping on labour dayyyyy

#throwback to the happy me

Arguments are going on and off, on and off. I get tired and I really can't be bothered anymore. Like seriously. I keep trying but everybody seems to think that I'm not. Thinking that I'm a loser who's trying to get something in return without doing anything? Oh really. THANKS? I mean I may not be trying hard enough right now but can't you give me some time and some patience? Do you think I actually like disappointing every single person I know? Honestly, I won't be bothered if anyone else said that to me. I just can't believe it came from you. I just can't believe hours ago you were so nice and then now this. I really don't see hope in us. You want to know what I see in my future now? Me living happily. Alone. I don't see how if your attitude continue to be like that, we can ever communicate. Like seriously, EVER. I'm so sicked of being put down by people. I'm just sick of it. I never ever wanted to hurt you. Not even now when I'm so angry and upset with you. But I guess you can't do the same. Just because you are angry and annoyed, you go raging and thinking that you are the victim. Ever put yourself in my shoes and think from my perspective? Nope. I know you are angry. And I find it reasonable. But what about me? Do you actually think I want to call off meeting you? I just didn't want anything less for you. I just didn't want to show you a side of me that's not good enough. But you don't seem to understand, do you?

So many days have passed. So many things have happened. It's almost the direct opposite of what it was like a month ago. Everything has changed. I'm confused with what I want. I don't always know what I want. I don't how to tell you how I feel. I don't seem to be able to open up to anybody even people closest to me. I am so used to blocking people out of my life, keeping a safe distance from everyone that I forgot to show you that you are actually different. And because of that you think I don't care. Look. I'm a perfectionist. I cannot tolerate any imperfection in a relationship or a friendship. I cannot stand having someone lie to me, I cannot accept how I am always the last to know about things people have planned or little secrets that everybody seem to have already known for a long long time. I no longer know who to trust. I'm skeptical about the type of friends I have. More paranoid than ever. I'm insecure and you know it. But you choose to tell me you will care less so as to prevent yourself from hurting. Isn't it ironic? How you said it's the process that matter. And I'm left to find out that you are actually just as selfish as I am. My life is such a joke. A joke that's not that funny actually. It's so contradicting and I'm just an insignificant piece of chess on the chess board. I don't know what to do and I don't know who to trust or who to rely on.